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Friday, July 04, 2008, 3:33 AM
♥ :) ♥
As I read through previous posts since 3 years ago, it seems like I have been becoming unhappy and unhappier. LOL pardon my english. It used to be empty complains, random updates in life but now its like the real real dark side of life. Shall make this post slightly lighter mode. :)

My mood was so affected by that show that I couldn't sleep until 4+ 5am. I didnt feel like working today since I don't think I will be able to perform well. However ! I performed well today ! Think cilents prefer my lifeless voice ? Haha

Modelling interview was a waste of time since she just don't know when to stop blabbering about her love life. Went for painful facial then met fairywing ! AKA sk... hahaha had teppanyaki for dinner then went shopping around while waiting for Denise to knock off. He said go Paragon shop since we're hardly there but we ended up in Paragon's Watsons and Guardian.

When Denise finished work, we cheap trill at Bossini...


Lol... Then went Geyland for DOU HUA... Had guest appearance there hahah Shhh dun wanna say who ... Had an agitated conversation then went home ....

Sleeping late again ... Haix
Thursday, July 03, 2008, 3:08 AM
♥ 6 Years Itch ♥
Just watch a korean drama named "6 years itch". It talks about how this couple was together for 6 years and how one quarrel made the guy unfaithful towards the girlfriend. Despite the 6 years together, they broke up.

The title of thsi show definately caught my attention. Watching it, somehow is like watching my own love drama. How I can deeply relate to it. But my situation is a bit abnormal.

It really made my blood boil. Till this date, I can never imagine you could hurt me this way. I lost faith in love. I dislike seeing couples on the streets. It seemed like a joke. I feel so pathetic. Because I can almost hate myself for not being able to trust again.
Wednesday, July 02, 2008, 1:18 PM
♥ Boss ? No, Friends .... ♥
It been quite some time since I graduated and had been enjoying life. Starting with the "carpark attendant" job to receptionist and now telemarketing.

Currently I am telemarketing this standard chartered co brand with preduential credit card. We were "supposed" to sell 6 in a day after probation. Nevertheless, it really depends on the cilent's mood and time of the day. There were many times where I feel so defeated because I wasn't able to hit target. I wasn't afraid of being sacked, in fact I had intentions to quit this job.

The reason I felt the pressure was because those 3 guys were not only my employers but my friends. Ever since the day when one of them approached me to work for them during IT show, they had placed their trust in me. Hence, I felt pressurised to perform up to their expectations. I even had the urge to ask them not to give me my salary when I don't hit the target. Not only I don't want them to waste money on me just because I was more like a friend than an employee, I also don't want this trust to be misplaced.

However, when one of them heard that i had intentions to quit this job, he pulled me aside to talk to him. He told me that they believed in their foresights in their candidates and I have shown that I have the professionalism and capability to perform this job. They would have preferred me to stay on till I've found my long term job.

After the conversation, I felt like tearing. It's been long since someone assured me like that. I still remember the time when they passed me their name card, I left it in my pocket but it dropped into the toilet bowl accidentally. Since there is no way i will reach my hands into the toilet bowl just to save it and thinking it was from prudential, I couldn't care less.

There are so many people that passed by our lives unknowningly. Some, you'll never know them. Others, they leave footprints in your life. So here I wanna thank... Louis(For spotting me), Jeffery (For encouraging me) and Issac (For upholding the picture). :) Thanks for giving me the opportunity.
Sunday, June 29, 2008, 1:47 PM
♥ The affairs of heart that cannot be comprehended ♥
Here's something I extracted from one of my close friend's blog...


There are only 3 things we need in life.
Love to make us weak, alcohol to make us strong, and friends to pick us up when the first two makes us hit the floor.

The ONLY people you need in your life, are the ones who prove that they need you in theirs.

Hearts don't really break, nobody gets to break a heart.
And no one can, cause hearts, after the wildest storms, survive, and will always stay intact.
When you feel pain in the region of your heart,
Its not the heart thats breaking.
Something else does.
Its faith...and you'll slowly stop believing...


Another close friend of mine is in warzone with her girlfriend... Seriously it makes me think about being in a love.

The Power of Love can make one shed tears for entire night,
can make one blabber non-stop about her night's date
can make one boil with hatred and hot tears
can make one give without expecting anything back
can make one lose their principles, values aka themselves

Friends and strangers who are reading this, I urge you, the worse thing you can do to a person especially your other half,

Is no longer about losing feelings for them.

Its about making use of them and/or unfaithfulness.


*Here I am listening to your memories, when you did what you did*
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