Friday, June 25, 2004, 2:09 AM
hmmm...i have been reading this book "the five people u meet in heaven" i think it's really a good book...its not really a christian book i can say...the stories are unexpected and very meaningful...it teaches u how to look at something bad that happens at a different angle...i am always guilty of spending my time watching tv and reading comics when i am supposed to be studying for my exams..but i am not guilty for reading the book...trust me its a good book cause shan is a girl that cannot finish a book within 2 years or more...grace should know...:)
exam is starting next monday i am nnot prepared for it...i suddenly feel that studying is so meaningless...no mood to study at all this holiday...a few people has been very encouraging towards my studying attitude and stuff...hope to pass my exams and promos...
i was reading someone's blog...he said he thinks no one will read his blog...frankly i used to ask myself who will read my blog man...but come to think of it...the blog is something to pour out your feelings...does not really matter how many people reads it...oh and to this guy...one thing i learn is YOU CAN'T PLEASE EVERYONE...you'll be too exhausted...doing what you think is right might be better? i mean different people will have different opinion on wat u do...being nice can be tiring but i think being mean is not wat u really are...really !!!but no matter how distant friend we are..but remember we are still friends...
ok..people i know my blog plain... i promise i will learn after my exams k!!! :P
Thursday, June 24, 2004, 1:11 AM
hmmm me and grace and cold war on ...ya it was abt my insensitivity towards the friendship that we had with ally...i did not know that i was neglecting her in the midst of losing myself in my own world...of course i am grateful to grace that she knock some sense into me...i tried to date my darling ally to movie but she had her wisdom tooth out so we decide to cancel the date...however this time i saw an improvement in the relationship with grace and me ...we resloved the recent PROBLEMS we had with each other so quickly...the last time we took a year to reslove everything...ya i am happy that we are able to talk our hearts out instead of guessing...
my mum was admitted into hospital during to lung infection...at first when i heard abt it i was very calm..no sadness just very agitated...until i went to the hospital to visit...the way her fever goes up to 39.7*C... the way she pants just by sitting up...it really breaks my heart...i could feel her time is near..the feeling is so strong...i tot of wat uncle alex told me i was even more afraid...i wanted to cry but no tears come out...grace was sweet enough to stay over at my house to accompany me but i rejected her offer...one thing is that i think is too far and unsafe for her to travel at such a late hour...another is that i tot i wanted to be alone...but i was wrong...i needed a tight hug so badly...finally i broke down...well i managed to recover after a while...i shouted at derek for nothing and for the first time i shouted at him so loudly and fiercly...people who have read my blog...please pray for her