Saturday, June 25, 2005, 9:49 PM
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is it really a test of our friendship? i thought it was just understanding each other's situation...i really do not remember when i said i didn't like him cause he is your boyfriend .... if so, i wouldn't have helped him when the two of you quarrel... wat u mean by just btw the two of us ? me and derek in our own world ? y issit that must be i catch up with you, in a friendship issit see who takes the initative ? my assignments, projects dateline is in my mind.... everything is a mad rush for me ... and i cannot be forgiven that i forget the date with you ? if you had reminded me the previous day i would gladly go with you....u choose to keep quiet abt the then i wouldn't know wat u are unhappy with..... i dunno wats wrong with joking with my friends .... this whole week i wanted to settle the issue with you but then u just dun wanna tell me wats wrong ... i thought that as my good friend, u would understand.... i needed support too and not me down here guessing wat did i do wrong to anger you..... wat are u insecure of ? that i would leave you ? then u had put too little trust into our friendship... i shared so much of the good times i had with you with my friends.... how would you feel if i keep calling you and tell you how much fun i am having with my poly life? wun you like think "hey... she is living so well without me" ...i know the feeling cause whenever u told me abt jc life with jeremy, having breakfast and stuff, i am thinking why am i not being able to be there with you.... i tot if we can end this argument early enough maybe u can gatecrash my poly so that u will understand more when i tell u abt my school stuff ..... i went sunday service hoping to catch up with u only to learn that u are not coming... as well as today's rehearsal.... i brought my modelling photos to show you and to talk to you....... i dun like it that if someone is unhappy with me and then they choose to keep quiet with it .... u know it when i quarrel with derek recently........ i really hope to end this quarrel ... i love you, i really do............................
Thursday, June 23, 2005, 9:58 AM
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hey... so many things due this week... wahaha but then after this week will be more free though i still have assignments to hand in.....tml still have a test... sianx ... then i have to wear blazer and heels for our presentation. so must go shopping! but no money..... E & D is coming up and the gifts for GOH and VIPs is not settled yet .... stress ~ Now in school lab doing BCS project ... some many of them rushing it here ...
Tuesday, June 21, 2005, 11:35 PM
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hai~ taking a break from my webpage project... hmmm school work are pileing up and datelines are tight ... for some subjects, we are even just left there to die ... i am not getting understanding and support from my family and friends... very disappointed and sad lar ... i do not think that i have changed ... i mean i spend almost everyday with my poly friends so most of my topic will be about them... though many might think that i am having fun but then its many of them did not see the stress side of me ... i am tired of the fight that i am putting up ...