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Friday, April 08, 2005, 11:36 PM
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naniaseyo !!! hmmm many would haven known what happened by now... my mum passed away not long ago ...on the 31 March 2005 ... i was with her all the while when she passed away ... for those who are curious about the process ... on Sunday and Monday she fell into a coma like state whereby she could only move her hands and legs , always sleeping... on Tuesday her situation improved... she could answer by nodding and shaking her head , dun sleep as much so i thought "hey she is going to get better!" ... apparently not ... the next day she went into the coma like state again... this time worse than Sunday and Monday ...she couldn't even move her hands and legs ... all she could do was a weak blink ... we knew the situation is of no return so we called the relativews to visit her ... i think she have seen all those she wanna see ... at 10+ 11 , they went back so left me and my dad ... her temperature was 40.5 ... about an hour or so later she begin to gasp for air a little ... ya gradually her gasping was heavier then suddenly stopped ... my dad panicked shouted her name then she continue gasping ... slowly it bcame softer and softer ... tears came out of her left eye ... and then she left us at 1.08am ...

ok some peole asked if i cried and was i upset ... hmmm funny question to ask... ya i did ... OF COURSE LA !!! i was glad that at last she dun have to fight the pain she waws suffering from but i do miss her ... my room became quieter... no choice but to become stronger and more independent... the responsibilty i used to dread but now feel lost withoout it ... only a short 18 years with her ...enough ? she cant even spend my 18th birtday with me that she promised me to ... she wun be able to see my rebonded hair that she was so excited about ... the person that i know that will never abandon me is gone ... i want to be pampered in her goodness again but how to ? when was the last time i went out with her , the last time i ate what she cooked ... i never tell her how much i like the food she cooked and only did so at her death bed...

look people need to know they are being appreciated ... dun wait till the last minute to pick up the courage to a big thank you to your loved ... i hope i wasn't too late
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