Saturday, July 30, 2005, 10:39 AM
yesterday two of my group mates come over to my house to stay over ... was supposed to do project but then a bit slack to do and also majority of my other group mates not there as well... but then got do a bit of things lar ... i dunno what did we talk about then end up talking about the stories that had happened to my family ... hmm i dunno if my story is very sad or wat but i believe there are other more tragic stories .... i am fortunate that i am definately not the worse... hmmm was glad that there is someone to accomapny me to sleep and also go school with me ... my room has been empty for quite some time ... the tim eof sharing was a fruitful one... it got one of my friend open up too.... then both of them cried ... one of them is because of my story and another cried of the heartache she is going through .... y do we appear strong ? so that we can be a pillar of support for people ....but sometimes we need to learn how to trust people and just show your true feelings ... dun share with your dairy your problems .... share with us .... at least there is a fatty shoulder to cry on .... this stayover has allowed me to understand my friends better ....
P.S : Dun grieve for me ... but use it as a lesson in your life or other people's life to make a difference in family relationship ... as long as they are around , its not too late .........
Thursday, July 28, 2005, 1:11 PM
hmmm... have been keeping a lot of thoughts to myself larr.... is not i wanna hide things but then if saying out doesn't benefit anyone ... why say right ? and those things that are related to me, i also dunno who to trust completely lar .... so sorry to those whom i have hurt in the process fo keeping things to myself ... just dun want others to be unhappy and bothered about my thoughts .... my oral presentation was a screw up... very nervous ,teacher say i no confirdence ... think will get a C ... then my essay also got C ... haix i have already dropped out out JC liao ... dun wanna repeat another year ... is not just a pass i want it to be average .... but the number of projects to be done does not allow me to allocate time for my studies other than my lesiure time.... very saddened by the disputes in class .... i dun wanna have them as my classmates ... but i want them as my friends .... those i used to be closer with are not close anymore ...wouldn't life be better if we dun read too much into people's words ?.....tired of being defensive and catious.....
Monday, July 25, 2005, 9:48 PM
isn't it sad to see people dump things down and leave ? sometimes we leave for our selfish reasons.... ever thought what would happen if you leave ? how many will be hurt ? you may be tired but the others are fighting with you .... i came across a nick that says "
the best thing about pictures, is they never change even though the people in them do" .... seems like memories are the best ain't it ?