Friday, June 04, 2004, 10:04 PM
hai i think i always fail as a person... i am full of me, myself and i...its hard to satisfy everyone and there is no way i can do it...so wat is the best way out for my selfish thinking...i heck ...i am those kind who dun even know when i hurt someone...i mean to me it may be nothing but to another it might hurt them deep...hiya so difficult to be a good person man...today i think she got pissed off or hurt by me again..and as usual i dunno wats wrong...i realised it when she starts walking alone quietly...
sometimes i really wish that someone will tell me wats wrong with me directly instead of making me guess...this does not apply to her only but also to derek...i mean come on man how am i purpose to know ? ok if i have repeated that mistake many times already but which of the long list issit ? how many times have i offended a particular person?
TO YOU(u should know who):now that u are attached, i hope u understand wat did i go through was i was newly attached and dun blame me any more...u will start to be more defensive of him and stuff one...ya not to blame u and i guess i will not...den all the best to u and him...remember in a relationship there will be a lot of thunderstorms one...den during all these thunderstorm, u'll feel like giving up and break up but must perserve k...den u will be happy...remember must ENDURE so you will ENJOY ya forgot the last one...all the best
Thursday, June 03, 2004, 12:09 AM
hey...its been quite sometimes since i wrote my blog...nothing happened much i guess...but i thank God that my mother is regaining strength with her left hand...as for me, my spiritual walk is not that strong anymore...getting more and more lazy to do quiet time.
I realised that ever since i got into a relationship since sec2, i drifted away from my friends...is either i am too involved in my relationship until i dirft from them or they feel as though they are unwanted or both...example of such people is: Eunice, Suat Ling. Kor Kor and i think many more. As for Eunice, she used to talk to me almost everyday but now we hardly talk and she has Jean and Elina...Suat Ling, can feel that we not so close anymore, eversince i stop going home with her...she used come running towartds me and hug me...now i go and hug her she also resist a bit...Now i am trying to make use of the holiday to catch up with my friends...
oh holidays is so short man !!! one week used up for extra class...then got camps etc.
i am going to br so bored during the church camp cause practically everyone is going there den i can't go... who is going to accompany me man ?!