Tuesday, June 08, 2004, 11:00 PM
today went s'pore christian home for cip. my heart sank when an ah ma's hands had to be tied up so that she will not move her hand abt when she is being fed. i tried feeding at first but it was difficult as she refuses to eat and kept asking me to untie her. so the nurse asked me to change another ah ma to feed. this one alwaya says that she is full but stills opens her mouth when i feed her.when she refuses to eat, then must say" later i let u eat durian after ur meal k" haha such an old rascal.the oldesst ah ma there is 112 years old. one thing i was unpleased with is the nurse's attitude towards the elderly...she lost her temper with the ah ma when the wheelchair was stuck...they practically threw the elderly onto the bed... i being to wonder... will i end up like them ? will i be cared for ?
when i was about to left the home...i return grace her photo...inside got grace and shuling and krystal...dunno who tot krystal was me...den i think don say she quite chio i think it was jeremy that tot i was krystal den don say hui shan got so chio meh ?...hai that was a slap on my face...since sec 1 i became concious of my looks...of course i cannot be compared with my good friend lar...was quite hurt...and also josiah teasing me abt being hairy...hai...but i always uses this theory to comfort myself...there are people out there that dun even have legs got hands to have hair on...some bornt disfigured...i am really forunate enough...
then on the way to novena square suddenly grace became moody and cried in long john...i asked her wat happened but she didn't want to say...i dun want her to be irritated with me so i stopped asking....so grace next time if u are upset or wat and i know... i will ask u a few times but i will not pester u in case u get irritated and in case u want so privacy...but feel free to tell me k...i am not a person with many solutions but i can be a hearing person or at least i will try to be
oh today i went queensway to help my AH GONG k see carefully is AH GONG k to buy track shoes...somehow the salesman bluff my mum about the product being the new pair or the sample pair...she got angry so she did not buy from that shop...haha keep seeing cute guys there !!! shhh dun tell commando ar !hehe...yeah tml commando is coming back...kinda miss him and his act cute voice haha