Saturday, December 04, 2004, 2:00 AM
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today i went back school to check whether i can be promoted...my hope the previous night had been dashed...i can't get promoted...i appeared to be fine about it but my mind is in a mess ... i only told my auntie and my friends about my result... didn't dare to let my mum know cause i am afraid she cannot take it... however when i came back... she suddenly asked hows my result...i supposed she found out (not through my aunt)....my mum cried when she knew i did badly for my exam...i felt so bad...i couldn't sleep since 1220 so i got up .... i left a note saying that i couldn't sleep and asked her not to look for me since it is dark outside and a shadow will scare me... when i had dumped my dead fish , my mum was outside looking for me ... then she started crying... she tot i committed suicide ... now i still dunno wat path i am to go... i dunno wat i want either... i am trying to avoid my mum... ashame of myself... i need to sort out my thoughts and feelings first... shouldn't been greedy to choose the JC path... i had always been an average student....